Johnny will be two in a few weeks. I know it’s terribly cliché, but time really does fly when you have a child. I feel like it was just a few short months ago that I was staying up half the night and nursing a little babe every 2 hours (or less!).
(Here he is just a few hours old)
(And 3 days old – a little more alert)
Now I blink and he’s almost TWO!
I’ve found myself reflecting a lot lately on how I’ve changed since becoming a mom. One of the biggest changes I didn’t anticipate was how much my capacity to love has increased. Again, cheesy & cliché, I know.
But it’s true. I stare in awe at this little being we’ve created, and how perfect he is in my eyes, and I can hardly contain the love that I feel.
Even on days like this (although I may need to breathe a little deeper):
It’s not just the love that I feel for Johnny that has grown. But when I see Doug playing with Johnny, being the incredible dad that he is, it makes me love him more and in a way I didn’t anticipate.
Any time these two are together, you are guaranteed to hear a lot of giggles and laughs coming out of Johnny. Oftentimes, I find myself just watching Johnny as he figures out his little world & I realize I’m smiling. Then I look at Doug, and he’s smiling in the exact same way.
And when Johnny snuggles with my mom & dad… I love seeing them comfort my little one.
And remember fondly all of the love & comfort I received as a child. I appreciate them more because I know how hard they worked to raise us well.
And when Johnny dive bombs my sister for a huge hug, I feel closer to her than ever before because I know how much he loves her. And how much she thinks the world of him. And to him, it’s always a party when she’s in the room.
Sometimes, I wish there was a pause button in life. Or a replay button. Alas, there is not. So I just remind myself, as I move through this life, to stay present and enjoy each moment while it is here.